Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Moving On

I've been thinking that it is time to move on.  From this blog, yes.  Our adoption journey and the years in China are complete.  Time for other things in my life, although I'm not sure yet what they will be.

I've been a little sick this past week, which has found me spending large amounts of time doing nothing, which is hard for this girl.  I like to accomplish, complete, check of the list.  But it's given me time to think, and I've found myself thinking about the days when all my kids were younger and I was schooling them at home.  I know those days were not easy... why is it that now that they are gone they seem magical in my memory?  Perhaps it is God's mercy, for me to only remember the coziness of having everyone together to read and craft and such.

I'm waiting for something new to capture my heart and my time.  I have it to give.  What is it?  I've been waiting for months now, it seems.

I feel like in some ways I have been slacking in my parenting.  Perhaps it's the longing for those by-gone days that has me immobilized.  I don't know.  I want to be "on" and ready for what my kids need, but these days I don't always know what that is.  Those earlier days were easy not in the full on attention that was required, but in the way I could just gather them around me for a story when things weren't going well.  Situations I face now require a bit more brain power.

Lord, please show me Your ways and Your plan.  Energize me for the stages of parenting I am in now.  Thank you for the sweet memories of the past... help them not to immobilize me but rather give me joy as I ponder how to walk out these present days with their unique challenges.  Help me not to grow weary in well doing, knowing that in due time I will reap a harvest if I do not lose heart.  I look forward to Your plans for me.

Thank you, readers, for joining me, whether you just stopped in or have been with me since 2005, when we were waiting to be Six.  It's been a joy to share a slice of our life with you.  :-)

Love, Lynne

11 comments:

Veronika Sikora said...

love reading your blog. you will find your answers =) hugs to all of you!

Judith and Lance said...

How sad! I will miss your posts and have enjoyed watching your family grow over the years. May God guide your steps as you seek Him for direction.

Tracy said...

Lump in my throat... for this new season we find ourselves in, and for the last entry to your amazing blog that has been my link to your life from the distance. Thank you for sharing... I guess now I'll have to bite the bullet and become a user of Facebook, wink wink!

Love you precious friend, and I stand with you in patient expectation of all that He has for you!!

~ Tracy

Jason and Lisa said...

Oh, how will I be able to keep track of your life? Facebook does not seem thorough enough. Anyways, I seem to understand what your are saying about the kid things. I have found ways to be involved with them outside of homeschooling. I coach for Azeria and Jalen's volleyball team. I also get to manage Danen and Jalen's Destination Imagination team. That may be something you could do with on of your kids. I miss the teaching so I find ways to be there teacher outside of regular school.
I have loved your heart in this blog and will miss it.

Sarah Jane said...

Awful. Don't like it. :) Love you.

Jennifer J said...

How bittersweet. I also have been waiting for something to capture my heart...or some additional direction from our Father. I will miss your posts, but hope to keep in better touch than I have been. We need to get our two girls together-Kate was just asking about Gwen. I look forward to talking to you again soon, our last chat was so encouraging and refreshing! Blessings!
Jen
ps I did call Mary House....

Anonymous said...

Thank you for all those informative blogs from 2005 to 2013. I so looked forward to them because of how they touch my life. You are a gifted writter.

We have a faithful God and in his timing he will direct your path to the next part of your journey with Him.

Mom

Mary and Justin said...

Totally understand. Sad to not have the glimpses into life. New things ahead!

Cannot wait to see you guys.

Anonymous said...

Lynne, I've loved being along for the journey. For such a time as this, He has something challenging and exciting for you to do to serve Him!

A friend from church will be leaving for China on the 13th to teach English there. We are excited for her. Maybe I can follow her blog.

Blessings,
Jan in St. Louis

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the time it took to make the blog possible for us to enjoy and keeping us informed
with the adoption and your 5 years in China.

It kept us connected with you so far away.

Our Lord is a faithful God and he will
show you the next part of His journey
with you. Be patient.

love,
Mom

bandw said...

I too have enjoyed following your family's journey. Funny, even though we are at so very different places in our lives I have recently had many of the same thoughts as you just described in this post.

I just stopped blogging a couple of weeks ago and have been doing so much thinking about my family and what God wants of me now. I also think so much about my earlier, super busy, wonderful mothering years [and mine have been over for quite a while]. There is much I miss.

I'll keep you in my thoughts. Take care and thank you for sharing so much of yourself, Lynne.