Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Moving On

I've been thinking that it is time to move on.  From this blog, yes.  Our adoption journey and the years in China are complete.  Time for other things in my life, although I'm not sure yet what they will be.

I've been a little sick this past week, which has found me spending large amounts of time doing nothing, which is hard for this girl.  I like to accomplish, complete, check of the list.  But it's given me time to think, and I've found myself thinking about the days when all my kids were younger and I was schooling them at home.  I know those days were not easy... why is it that now that they are gone they seem magical in my memory?  Perhaps it is God's mercy, for me to only remember the coziness of having everyone together to read and craft and such.

I'm waiting for something new to capture my heart and my time.  I have it to give.  What is it?  I've been waiting for months now, it seems.

I feel like in some ways I have been slacking in my parenting.  Perhaps it's the longing for those by-gone days that has me immobilized.  I don't know.  I want to be "on" and ready for what my kids need, but these days I don't always know what that is.  Those earlier days were easy not in the full on attention that was required, but in the way I could just gather them around me for a story when things weren't going well.  Situations I face now require a bit more brain power.

Lord, please show me Your ways and Your plan.  Energize me for the stages of parenting I am in now.  Thank you for the sweet memories of the past... help them not to immobilize me but rather give me joy as I ponder how to walk out these present days with their unique challenges.  Help me not to grow weary in well doing, knowing that in due time I will reap a harvest if I do not lose heart.  I look forward to Your plans for me.

Thank you, readers, for joining me, whether you just stopped in or have been with me since 2005, when we were waiting to be Six.  It's been a joy to share a slice of our life with you.  :-)

Love, Lynne